Rant on a Grumpy Day

Right now I don't want to face the world.
I don't want to say a word.

I want time to freeze.
Just let things be.

I want to close everything out.
No looking ahead, no turning around.

Future I don't want to see.
The present is not where I want to be.

The past makes me smile.
But I can't have it again,
eventhough it's mine.

SPARKLING NEAT SHINING CLEAN

Oh no! She is back again. The world has been trying to drug me with lazy pills but I have fought them to come back and write for those who miss me. Well honestly the ones who miss me have been missing forever.

The world is one big mess. Not like it has an option.

Imagine a sparkling neat and shining clean glass bowl. Such a beauty. Then imagine someone pouring condensed milk into it. Next one pours some thick chocolate sauce. Then comes some mayonnaise, followed by some yougurt, mango milkshake, custard, thick tomato soup and mustard sauce.

Now think of the bowl again. Yuck it's greasy and dirty. It should have burst because of all these contrasting ingredients. But it stays. Bears it all. Thinks of the days when it used to be a sparkling neat and shining clean bowl.

This is not some chef's secret recipe. Please don't try this at home. Actually, try and tell me how it tastes, i.e. if you live after eating it.

Didn't get it. There is nothing wrong in being slow. I respect slow people because I am quite slow myself. This will not change anyone's life. There is no need to hurry. You will get it eventually. Take it easy. The world is a mess you might slip if you hurry here.

RED TREE

On my way back from lunch I cross a beautiful tree. It has red leaves. Green and red leaves. I have been walking that way everyday for almost over a month now. But I saw this tree just yesterday.

I never saw it earlier because I never saw anything. That day there were too many people walking back with me. As usual I was walking alone. But this time I was looking around and talking in my head that how I should talk more.

And then bang, I was staring at this tree. I stopped for a brief second to confirm its beauty. Red and green shading a small part of the pavement. I walked by it again today and stared at it again. I just hope it does not mind being stared at by me.

It's sort of magical. I have a feeling that at night that tree looks very different. Maybe its turns completely red and has a small passage in it's trunk which leads you to a new world. Like the Enchanted Woods in the Folk of the Faraway Tree by Enyid Blyton. A world which has beautiful fairies and lovely wood folk. Perhaps one or two vegetarian Vampires also!

Someday I want to walk up to this tree at night and find the path the leads into this world. But I will not reveal the location of this passage. The moment other humans find out, they will hack and ruin my new world just like they have ruined the one here.

If I ever do go there, I might just not comeback. I don't like this world, its too evolved. But till I get there, I will live in this world dreaming of the little passage in my magical tree that leads to a magical world.